Happy Wednesday y'all!

So, first things first... I went to WW last night. I really wasn't sure what to expect. At home, my weight has fluctuated up and down (mostly up) since Christmas. I hadn't been to a weigh in since 12/30...so I was just preparing myself for a gain. And I did. 0.7 pounds. I suppose that is way better than it could have been.

Obviously (begin broken record part of blog post here) it could have been a lot better. In 3 weeks I could have lost 7 pounds instead of gaining .7.  BUT...I am getting out of this exactly what I'm putting in to it.

I don't want to dwell on the same ole things. I feel like every week that I gain (or don't go to my meeting) is a similar post. So, moving on.

I carry a lot of my weight in my belly. And that is the last place it seems to go from when I'm losing. Typically I lose weight in my face, chest and fingers (HA!) first. So, I started reading a bunch of stuff on how to lose belly fat. Clearly you can't just tell your body where you would like it to lose fat. Wouldn't that be nice though?! And I know you can't spot train away all your issues. I know no amount of sit ups and/or crunches is going to be sufficient to lose the flab. BUT...I did find some interesting stuff.

1. Cardio. I need to be doing more. Duh, right?! But almost everything I read said you should be doing a minimum of 30 minutes of "intense" cardio 6 (SIX!!!) days a week. Basically I need to be sweating more. My little 20 minute walks (though they still kick my out of shape bootie) aren't going to cut it for fat loss (especially belly fat loss). This depresses me to no end. Ha.

2. Stress. Apparently stress gives you belly fat. Lovely. I need to figure out how to deal with all the worrying I'm doing. I think working out more will actually help that. Of course I'm stressing out about working out more...so I don't know.

3. Sleep. I've talked about this a ton...but my sleep habits are AWFUL. I may sleep 3 hours one night and 10 the next. This is something I've been wanting to work on for a while...and I just need to work harder at getting on a schedule.

I saw a girl on Instagram the other day who sets alarms for herself at night. Like when the first alarm goes off she turns off the television or computer, she gets off her phone, she sets the coffee maker, etc. Then when the second alarm goes off 15 minutes later, she washes her face, brushes her teeth and does all her nightly routine things. Then, when the third alarm goes off 15 minutes after that, she gets in bed. I LOVE this idea. I know you'd think I could just do this all on my own...but you'd be wrong. I think I'm going to try and implement this into my nights...see if it makes a difference.

I know that these three things will help with my overall health and weight loss. It's an added bonus if they help whittle down my waist! I spend a lot of time obsessing over all the things I want to change about myself and my life, but if I'm being honest...I rarely make any behavioral changes in order to achieve these goals. Something has to change in order for me to change, right?!

I hope y'all are having a great week.




It's Wednesday. Which means I should be sharing my weigh in results.  Especially since I didn't go to my meeting (or share my results) LAST WEEK.

Except.... I didn't go to my meeting (again) last night. Not starting off this year with the dedication I had hoped for. Geesh.

To be fair, there were several reasons (um, excuses) that I stayed home last night. I didn't feel good. I took a nap (seriously...like a 4 hour nap!! which, I promise I never do) C worked late (we normally go out for a salad together after my weigh in). And, of course... the number one reason I talked myself out of going...I knew I had gained.

Nothing too drastic. I've gained maybe a pound since I hit the 18.3 pound mark at the end of December. So it's not like I'm freaking out over that pound. I am, however, freaking out over the fact that I seem to have lost my motivation. Easy come, easy go. Right?

I had errands to run earlier today, so I got lunch out. This is a bad, bad habit...that even my taste buds are sick of (that's how you know you eat out too much...when nowhere sounds good). And I just couldn't help but think how hard I am making this on myself. I mean really. Losing weight...the actual process is REALLY simple. I KNOW what to do. I KNOW how to do it. I KNOW I am capable of doing it. I also KNOW that it works when I do it.

The problem? Me. My emotions. My laziness. I feel like this is a broken record type blog post. I am sure it would take about 2 seconds to find a few other posts that mimic these exact sentiments. But... that just proves that this is my real issue.

So, I cam home, I reset my WW password (cause I haven't logged on in so long that I forgot it). And I tracked my insanely high point lunch.

Then, I thought about something I read on Facebook the other day. It was a post by one of my favorite authors, Jen Lancaster. You can read the post I'm talking about here. Basically, she repeats what I've read several times over and what I've known for years. You've got to get down to the root of the issues.

I mean, yes, I know WHAT to do to lose weight. I could probably write a book on it. BUT...what I don't know is WHY I DON'T DO IT. I used to think it was just because I liked chocolate and peanut butter....especially together. But the older I get, I feel like there is more to it than that.

I don't have any deep dark secrets in my closet like some people you read about (that have to tackle those demons before they can lose weight). But clearly, there is some road block here that is a lot more profound than my love of all things carbohydrates.

So, I'm going to work really hard on just doing what I need to do (tracking my points, getting in my healthy checks, and trying to be more active). But, I'm also going to be doing some soul searching...which if I'm being honest...I hate to do.

And, I'm going to go to my weigh in next week. Because, if there is one thing I know... avoiding your problems rarely makes them better.



So much for good blogging intentions in the new year! I have been super busy playing catch up with design work. And answering emails (because I didn't for almost 2 weeks!). 

But, I've also been really, really, SUPER busy...

watching Scandal!! Ha. I've seen people talk about it on Facebook for a couple of years...but I didn't think I would be interested. I mean, Sunday nights are for football. And Revenge. And now Madame Secretary (love!). 

But, on January 1st, the hubs and I were laying on the couch and thought why not try one episode on Netflix. HA. It's taken every ounce of self control not to watch all the episodes while C is at work. But as soon as he gets home...I'm like "let's do this!". Such a good show. 

We've also been working out. Shocking, I know.  But, I assure you it's about the most pathetic attempt at working out anyone has seen. It's super cold here, so I can only manage about 10 minutes outside before I feel like my muscles may snap in two. Which is a good thing...because 10 minutes seems to also be about as much endurance as I have anyway. We keep plugging along though. 

Last night, we even went to the gym. It was just too cold to even think about doing our regular walk outdoors. And I mean, we pay for the gym membership when we pay our rent every month...so why not use it, right? 

I missed my weigh in this week because I was at the doctor. Nothing serious, just allergies/sinus/asthma issues (they all hate the heater!...makes me sick every year). But, I am looking forward to next week. Praying I hit the 20 pound mark!! 

I still haven't taken down our tree. It just makes me so sad. I got a bunch of ornament organizers though, so that is making the process a little bit more enticing. Maybe I will finish it this weekend. Of course, I'll probably just be watching Scandal...


:: 2015 ::

my scripture for the year
Happy New Year y'all! Hope everyone had a safe and fun NYE. We were super low key...like dinner at 8, followed by some frozen yogurt and then in bed by 10:30. We did manage to celebrate the countdown, but I think we were both asleep by 12:15. Cozy....but also kind of lame. We both vowed to live it up a little bit more next year.

I always think of the new year like I'm going to wake up with a new found motivation to be and do all the things I need to - to be the "new" me. You know, the "resolutions" me. Naturally, this never happens. I still crave donuts and despise housework. Ha. Always a work in progress.

Over dinner last night, C and I talked a lot about some changes we want to make this next year. We broke them down into categories...Faith, Health, Finances, Travel, Relationships, Miscellaneous. I think they are all pretty basic resolutions. We want to get healthy, grow closer to one another and God. We hope to travel more, buy a new home, pay off some student loan debt and work on some career goals. You can read more about my 2015 resolutions here.

I've been doing the monthly goals thing for the last few months. While I'm never 100% successful with them, I do feel like writing down a handful of things I want (need) to accomplish over the month is a great motivator. I'm not too proud to tell you that if I don't write things down....I don't do them.

Anyway, C is going to start doing a list of his own... and I'm excited to see how much more we can accomplish this year. A good portion of 2014 was spent on the couch watching Law & Order reruns. Entertaining, yes... but not so conducive to productivity.

:: work out 10 times
:: hit the 25 pounds lost mark
:: refinish buffet
:: refinish dining room chairs
:: go to eye doctor and get new glasses & contacts
:: go to Kimbell to see the Faces of Impressionism exhibit
:: go to church every Sunday
:: daily exercises
:: go to Stock Show (with Dalton!)
:: put Christmas up (and organize as I do)
:: blog 10 times
:: read 5 books
:: read Bible regularly
:: work on budget (ongoing)
:: cards calender (send!)
:: make bracelet
:: work on garage (it's a MESS)
:: wash Jeep (seriously)
:: dinner with friends
:: watch Cowboys WIN playoff games (yes, more than one!!!)

Here's to 2015!



Y'all. I kind of dropped the ball on blogging in December. Oops. I just spent time working and getting ready for the holidays. This is actually the first time I am turning on my computer since before Christmas. Crazy!

I did want to check in with my final weigh in of 2014. I lost 3 pounds (over Christmas even!) and hit the 18.2 pounds lost mark.

I know that I could have lost so much more this year if I would have just got serious. In fact, it does upset me how many weeks (err, months) I let go by without even really trying. BUT, the good news is that I did buckle down these last few weeks and have managed to lose pretty consistently. I am SO looking forward to all the changes I can make in 2015. It's super motivating to think that I could get to my goal weight in 2015!!

Speaking of goals... y'all know I love them. So, New Year's Resolutions are maybe my favorite thing. I just love the fresh clean slate of a new year. It's like the first page of a new book. What you write is totally up to  you! C and I have been talking a lot about what we want to accomplish this next year. Lots of the classics like saving money and getting healthy. But, we also want to throw in some other fun things...like travel and home buying and having a baby. Ha. I'll be sharing more about those (and my January goals) in a separate post.

As for my December goals, I didn't get as much marked off as I wanted, but I'm okay with that! I had a great month and enjoyed almost every bit of it.

1. Work out 10 times NOT EVEN CLOSE. HA!
2. Hit the 20 lb lost mark! SO CLOSE!!!
3. Finish Christmas decorating
4. Finish 52/52 book challenge (5 more to go!!) SO CLOSE... only got to 49.
5. Color my hair (FOR THE LOVE!!)
6. Hang curtains... if they ever ship!
7. Continue working on budget (I need to buckle down)
8. Set up cleaning schedule
9. Unpack 5 NON Christmas boxes :) 
10. Finish 100 Happy Days photos on Insta KIND OF ABANDONED THIS. OOPS
11. Refinish buffet and dining room chairs 
12. Get accepted into certification program (STILL playing the waiting game right now)
13. Finish Christmas shopping early (no waiting until last minute!!)
14. Dinner with J&E
15. Wash Jeep and clean inside (it's bad, y'all)
16. Work on 2015 goals and Resolutions
17. Watch another classic film and read a classic novel (for my 101 in 1001)
18. Finish organizing paperwork CLOSE ENOUGH TO CALL IT GOOD
19. Get a new cookbook (another of my 101 in 1001 goals).
20. Watch the Cowboys win!!!  NFC-EAST CHAMPS :) 

So, obviously not my most productive month. I ended up not completing my reading challenge for the year (52 books) and that kind of bums me out. BUT... I just didn't feel like reading this month. Spent a lot of time with C and family...and I am okay with that trade off. 

Okay, I'm off to get ready for C and I's super low key NYE celebrations. Seriously, I think we are going out to eat and MAY actually make it to midnight. We are kind of lame this year....



Took a little blog break the last couple of weeks in November. Oops!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. We were thinking about going to the Cowboy game and last minute decided to go out of town with my mom and Aunt for the day to the family Thanksgiving. (And...about halfway through watching the game that afternoon...we were SO relieved we didn't drop the cash for that disaster!!).

I (shockingly!) had a pretty productive November. Although, the last two weeks were incredibly difficult...emotionally. My stepdad's birthday is the 20th. He would have been 57. Last year, C and I started a tradition of going to eat at Texas Roadhouse (which was his favorite) for his birthday. It was bittersweet. I miss him SO SO SO much. I try to focus on the good times and think positively, but some times... it's just too difficult and I can't seem to function.

In happier news, I hit the 13.4 pounds lost mark. Slowly but surely. I know if I tried just a bit harder (because I'm not even close to giving it my all) it would happen a bit quicker.

As for the rest of my November goals...

1.  Celebrate our SIX year anniversary!
2.  Go to Roadhouse on Terry's birthday (this is a new tradition C and I started last year!)
3.  Exercise at least 8x  
4.  Read 5 books
5.  Try to do some stuff on my Fall Bucket List 
6.  Get Christmas decorations out of storage and organized (and decorate, if there is time).
7.  Go to church 
8.  Refinish media cabinet
9.  Get curtains for living room JUST WAITING ON THEM TO GET SHIPPED
10. Paint dining room chairs and buffet
11. Get accepted to teaching program (SENT APPLICATION, WAITING ON DECISION)
12. Get hair colored (NEED TO DO THIS!!!)
13. Get family pictures done 
14. Picture a day 
15. Finish (and win!) the diet bets I'm participating in
16. Organize paperwork SO CLOSE...GOT MOST OF IT DONE
17. Unpack 5 boxes from storage MOSTLY CHRISTMAS, BUT STILL
18. Deep clean apartment IN PROGRESS
19. Continue working on budget IN PROGRESS
20. Watch the Cowboys WIN (I'll need help with this one!)
* BONUS: Make our Christmas Bucket List (MORE SOON)

1. Work out 10 times
2. Hit the 20 lb lost mark!
3. Finish Christmas decorating
4. Finish 52/52 book challenge (5 more to go!!)
5. Color my hair (FOR THE LOVE!!)
6. Hang curtains... if they ever ship!
7. Continue working on budget (I need to buckle down)
8. Set up cleaning schedule
9. Unpack 5 NON Christmas boxes :) 
10. Finish 100 Happy Days photos on Insta (going to have to double up a few days to catch up!) 
11. Refinish buffet and dining room chairs
12. Get accepted into certification program (just playing the waiting game right now)
13. Finish Christmas shopping early (no waiting until last minute!!)
14. Dinner with J&E
15. Wash Jeep and clean inside (it's bad, y'all)
16. Work on 2015 goals and Resolutions
17. Watch another classic film and read a classic novel (for my 101 in 1001)
18. Finish organizing paperwork
19. Get a new cookbook (another of my 101 in 1001 goals).
20. Watch the Cowboys win!!! 



All throughout October, as I was writing only about weight loss, I kept thinking how freeing it would be to able to write about whatever I wanted come November.

Um... No.

Going through a bit of a boring spell right now, I guess.

Anyway, thank goodness for Wednesdays! I can share my weigh in results!! I didn't go to WW last week. The week before I gained the 1.6 that I had lost the previous week. I really wasn't sure what to expect last night!

Thankfully, I lost weight!! I actually lost 1.6 (!!!). So I'm back down to 11 pounds lost overall (at WW, anyway). I'm excited to have lost, don't get me wrong. It's just that I'm also a little frustrated in this roller coaster thing I've got going on.

But, it's my fault.

I'm not trying to throw a pity party or beat myself up. But, here is the cold, hard truth. I'm getting out of this EXACTLY what I'm putting into it. I just tried using the thesaurus for the word I want to use here (half-a**ed) and nothing quite captures that sentiment. So here's the deal: I'm getting those kind of results because I'm putting in similar effort. Plain and simple.

I mean, it's a pretty basic concept that we all sort of know. You get out of things what you put into them. Right? I mean, save for a few exceptions... that is how life works. I wont tell y'all I've given 100% on this journey. I won't even pretend to have given 75%. I have probably averaged around 50% and I think my results are proof of that.

And? Honestly? I'm not okay with this. I wish going to WW and sitting through my weigh-in and meeting were enough. I wish more than anything that WANTING to lose weight was all it took. I would be tiny! Ha. But, there is hard work involved. You have to make changes to see changes. (I'm all about the cliches today). So, I'm really challenging myself to find areas where I'm being stubborn about not making changes. And then, TACKLING them!!

This week I'm going to continue to try and track my points everyday. I think this is the best measurement of my effort. And, for whatever reason (probably because of my lack of effort) it is something that I have a hard time doing day in and day out. It's not a time thing for me (it seriously takes 2 seconds to track my food each meal) ... it's a bad habit thing. And maybe one of those stubborn things I mentioned earlier.

Hope y'all are having a great week!
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