Or lack there of.
First, the challenge. I am about halfway thru the third week. The water has been the easiest. I'm really, really trying to drink only water...so that helps. I've been to WW the last two weeks, and plan on going this Friday (assuming they are open). More about my weigh in's below. I've even done okay with the 3 fruits and 3 vegetables every day thing.
The struggle has been working out everyday, getting in my miles (hard to do when you aren't working out) and getting on a better sleep schedule. I didn't feel good last week, and let that be an excuse not to work out like I had been. Then, in an accident that was based purely on my stupidity and clumsiness, I hurt my foot (like could not walk) for two days, so I didn't work out then...or a few days after it felt better...just to be safe.
I am also my own biggest saboteur.
My sleep has been just awful. I really don't know what to do. Friday and Saturday I was still up (as in not gone to bed yet) at 7 in the morning. Saturday, I honestly considered staying up all day to see if I would crash early that night. But, I passed out around 9 in the morning. It's so crazy. It's like my mind wont shut up. Ha. I think it's because I'm trying so hard to go to sleep? I should probably shadow my husband at work for a few days. He falls asleep the minute his head hits the pillow. He works about 10 times harder than I do though...maybe I should try to be more active. (I mean, I am...but I'm clearly failing at it).
Anyway...enough complaining and making excuses for today. I got back to business yesterday (love that fresh start Monday brings!). I obviously can't mark the 30 minutes of working out everyday as a success on the challenge...but there is still hope for everything else.
Now, my weigh ins. I'm basically giving about 50% to my health/weight loss right now (see: above). And the scale is showing it. I've pretty much maintained the weight that I rejoined at two months ago. The good news is that I finally quit that upward climb of the scale.
The bad news? I'm still fat.
I read a lot this week from this book. I think the major take away is that your mind is such a valuable tool in your success or failure. I feel like I'm a positive person, but I think that in actuality....I'm SO SO SO negative about myself...in my thoughts, words and ACTIONS. When I give up or make excuses, I might as well be telling myself I'm not worth it. And, I start to believe it.
I know that isn't the case. Of course I'm worth the effort it will take to be healthy. Of course my life is worthy of being the best it can be. I just need to get out of my own way.