twenty fourteen

Happy New Year Y'all!

I love the fresh start, clean slate that the new year brings, do you?

2013 was a difficult year for me. I sort of fell victim to the heartache and loss and never really made myself get up and do anything about it. Even though I know  better, I feel like not being depressed and full of grief is disrespectful to Terry's memory. Of course, if he were here, he would set me straight on that REALLY quickly. He was a no bs kind of guy and he would have called me out about a minute into it.

I gave myself the holidays to wallow in self pity (which were VERY emotional)...but made a silent promise that I would do everything I could to break out of this funk starting the first minute of 2014.

C and I had a very low key New Year's Eve. We had dinner at one of our favorite hole in the wall mexican food restaurants and brought in the new year with a toast of chocolate milk and coke slurpee (fancy!). I swear I felt a weight lift off my shoulder in those first moments.

I don't for one second think that the heartache will magically go away now, or ever, for that matter. I assume you probably carry the loss of a parent with you the rest of your life. But, I also feel like the best way to honor his life is to live mine. And that is what I intend to do. Starting now.

I am so looking forward to this year. May it be full of blessings and may the heartaches be few.

I can't wait to share my journey with y'all!

1 comment:

Ryan said...

Here's to 2014, lady! :)